In my last post on Feb. 26, things were going well. My hubby and I started our Healthy Liquids After 5 plan…to trim down a bit before Mexico. A short-term, pre-vacation plan.
The rest of that week went well, and we stuck to our plan. It was awesome! I had energy and felt great.
Then Friday of that week hit me….with a chest cold. Damn! I was sick all through the weekend and for most of that following week. Can you sense what’s coming?
That’s right…I went OFF my healthy eating. When I’m sick like that (and still have my appetite), all I want is comfort food. I just give in to the easy convenient foods like restaurants and takeout. Or I buy the ingredients to make crappy comfort food like macaroni and cheese. And…I don’t even do a great job at it! I haven’t sunk into the depths of junk food like chips etc., thank goodness.
So, I didn’t really veer off course; I did a 180 degree turn.
A few days ago, I started to feel normal, and then on a Friday, again, I was hit with another issue…massive headache and an overall lethargic level of energy all through the weekend. My husband’s cold has now taken different twists and turns and he’s back in bed today, sick, as well.
It’s frustrating because I allow being sick to be an excuse to put my goals on hold.
While I’m eating unhealthy food and lying on the couch coughing etc., I know what I’m doing, and I don’t care. What the heck is that anyway? Where’s my enthusiasm, my commitment, my pride in myself? How can I be so NOT like me? I guess I just don’t have the oomph I need to kick myself in the butt.
I think what I do is just give myself permission to stop thinking so much about what I’m doing and how I’m doing. I give myself permission to just say “F*&# it”. And it feels good because I think A LOT.
Until it doesn’t feel good.
I’ve been feeling low for most of the weekend. So, I guess I truly didn’t give myself permission, like I thought, or I wouldn’t be feeling guilty. I’m responsible for my own actions and for my own thinking. I deeply believe this.
I KNOW how powerful my mind is and how I can turn my thinking around. I just haven’t been able to do it today or yesterday.
I think the struggle continues to be: It’s OK to not be perfect. Somehow, I still beat myself up now and again even though my mind knows I’m human and it’s ok to screw up.
I’ve decided to just ride it out.
There is one thing I KNOW to be TRUE…every time I get low or when it seems I can’t get out of a mental slump.
I T A L W A Y S P A S S E S !
What a relief and how awesome is that? I’m feeling better already!
I’m proud to say that my husband and I have still stuck to our no alcohol at home plan, since mid-January. Woo hoo! It feels good to stick to a commitment.
We leave for Mexico this coming Saturday, and I’m really looking forward to the warm weather. Hopefully we can kick aside the germs that have been hovering around us. Hopefully, I can focus on the present and enjoy the time with my husband, my daughter and the friends we’ll be staying with.
Living life is about sharing life with others.
I WILL get back in the saddle wholeheartedly when I return. I WILL continue to blaze a trail on my health journey because I have that power…so cool.
Wishing you health and success on your journey,